I'm told these things can be set so no one else reads them. Hello? Can anyone see this? No? Good.
Maybe if I write these thoughts down, I can help make better sense of them. Some things have happened since I last wrote.
Tohru took me to visit where he grew up, in Bangladesh. It was very interesting, and a nice trip. I'm happy I got to see another part of the world I hadn't until then, and even happier he was willing to share a bit of his past with me. It was a great honor. And it just made me think how I couldn't wait to bring him home and introduce him to my family and share with him all the great things about the place I grew up... And then that's where the trouble started.
I have no idea, really, how relationships on the outside work!
Back home, when you pick your mate, you're with them for the rest of your life, usually, until one of them dies. They're their other half! And they're happy, they stay happy, just to have each other... They don't look at anyone else, eyes only for one person. But - from what I've seen so far, people on the outside change their mates, it seems, every so often. And this is - normal?
Maj and Jean're mates now - but she was 'dating' someone else before him. And she has a kid by still yet someone else!
Larry Lupin was involved with one girl when I first met him, and he seemed so very happy with her...! Then he got involved with Kami - who is very nice, but still...?
... And there was that lady I met in Hogsmeade, oh so long ago, with kids by - what was it? Four, five different men...?
I don't understand. But it gives me a very very cold feeling to think Tohru and I've both got holds on different ends of the rabbit.
Maybe this is what he expects to happen...?
I wish I could talk to my dad. He was from the outside, too. He'd know what to do...